Some of you may have noticed the shortage of posts around here. No, we haven't been traveling and no one is sick as was usually the case whenever it gets a little quiet in the forefront. Suffice to say, I haven't had time to blog as much as I used to.
Though I know it is not expected of me to explain and disclose everything I do in this virtual bubble of mine, I owe it to my small yet lovely audience to explain the change of voice in this blog.
I chanced upon blogging when, as a full time hands-on mother, I mastered the skill a little bit and found time for myself. Time for which I made good use of. I shared to whoever was interested, my personal crusade in creating a beautiful and creative environment for my daughter and how not to lose oneself in the process.
I dabbled in a lot of things outside motherhood. I styled for local publications, contributed to foreign fashion blogs, ran an online retail site along with some partners and designed handbags and apparel. All these I did over and on top of being a mother to Mischka. I dare not say I excelled in all or any for that matter, but just the mere fact the I am carving a niche for myself outside the shadow of my very supportive husband is enough to keep me going. We do not believe in the conventional "husband goes to work- wife stays at home" set-up. At some point we knew I had to go back to the work force. It was only a matter of finding the right opportunity for me. And for someone who has been out of commission for nearly four years, this is nowhere near easy.
To cut to the chase, I found a job and one that I absolutely love. May it be fate or pure luck, one lesson learned is to never be idle. Yes, you may have just given birth and deserve to cut some slack but don't lose yourself to the battle of motherhood. Take good care of your family and take better care of yourself.
A lot don't understand my decision and some think of it as something done in really bad taste. It could be and I don't blame them for feeling so. It saddens me tremendously but sometimes you just really have to bite the bullet.
This is the part where I say this blog will speak a different voice. From a passionate full time mother to an equally passionate professional juggler. And as I struggle to adjust to the demands of this new endeavor without compromising my role as a mother, I am learning to be content with catching my daughter still awake when I get home, having a chance to read her a story and tuck her to bed. Everyday for two weeks now, I realize the price I have to pay for taking this job. I am glad we have a solid relationship founded on love and trust for three years that I was with her day in and day out.
Motherhood for me is the toughest job you'll ever LOVE. Add to that a full-time job and you're a disaster waiting to happen. BUT, I find comfort in knowing that there's a lot of us in the same boat. And a good number of whom are doing a fantastic job balancing work and motherhood.
What are you thoughts on working full time and still wanting to be hands-on on your children? Is that even possible? Would love to hear from you.
